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Evening
Tuesday
Hello. Ralph's day today but I dedicate this day to PX though still he hasn't shown up.I'm not angry anymore. Instead, I feel so sorry for myself that I won't be spending Valentine's Day.My observation about year '85 and '86, they are both opposites. Last year's happy days are now boring, sleepy, tearjerky days. Siguro something happened to PX, maybe he got sick. [ooh,ha-ha, what a concern! yeah, that's the men's common excuse] Anyway, I still like him because of love and he's still not here by my side. [haha]
This afternoon, I happened to see Ate Baybee (my other bff ,Lanie's elder sister, 19 years old then) at the waiting place for buses and jeeps at Carried [that's Philippine Lumber, what they really meant] I wasn't able to mention yesterday that Ate Baybee introduced a guy from their college to me. He's ok, kind of handsome, the quiet type like BB.. but you know me, when I'm seriously looking for someone else I ignore the person who's just near me. Let's call this guy ES (Elevator shoes, coz he's tall) Well, I saw ES again today at Carried and he was the only one I could ask where Ate Baybee went. So he answered: "Rode a J & J bus going to Manaoag" Much later, here comes Ate Baybee alighting from the bus. [Ate Baybee went joyriding the Dagupan-Binalonan route, as was her habit in those days.Please don't ask why.] Soon as she was near me, she whispered,smiling: "ES has a crush on you!" I just looked at her as if I didn't hear anything. But really, how would I believe if ES has a crush on me when he doesn't say anything, kind of shy!
Cut this story short: We took the next bus home. We were just quiet for a while as we were seated in the 3-seater ones. I was seated in the middle of the two. Because of the awkward silence, I whispered asking something about PX, but Ate Baybee dismissed me with: "Will you please talk to ES?" Oh! Am I crazee here?!
A few minutes later, ES spoke up to me, kinda whispering: "Is that guy Baybee's boyfriend?" (referring to the bus conductor ahead)
Me answered: "I'm not sure"
Ate Baybee : "What? That guy, not my boyfriend!"
ES: "But you have a boyfriend, right?"
Ate Baybee: "Yes, of course!"
ES: "How does it feel to be in love?"
That's when I answered (mimicking Maricel Soriano): "It feels like heaven! But now I'm lying low, not in love! Hmp!"
Laughter, nervous laughter...[must have been a set-up that time]
Then Ate Baybee shocked me by her plans: "Both of you have no girlfriend/boyfriend. Hey, ES, it's settled then! On February 14 (pointing at both of us) it's a date, and I'm the chaperone. Okay?"
I BLUSHED. I felt so icky because.. I ... don't... know. Perhaps I'm falling indeed though I try to control it.
Maybe that's what God wants. Maybe this is just a test for me if I'm faithful to PX. Well, I really am!
I love PX! (1,000,000,000x)
Read the next 80s diary entry here
