Heart Of The 80s

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Evening
Wednesday

I know God heard my prayer last night! Cory Aquino is the new president of the Philippines and Marcos flew to Honolulu with the Marcos family last night at 9:05 PM [yes, accurate entry from me hehe]

And guezz what? Maybe PX heard my shout last night 'coz I just saw him today! I kind of believe that PX and I have ESP with each other, huh? It was a surprise to me when I saw him, good thing I'm still the usual me without my childish antics.. or else..

This is the last page of my diary 1. I will move on to my second book. There I will relate everything, I mean, the summary and quips from the beginning up to this February... okay?

NEW PRESIDENT...
NEW DIARY..
NEW LIFE..
NEW YEAR..
NEW DEAR (?).. no, still the one.

Thank You Lord for everything.

the 80s girl,
Red

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022586
Evening
Tuesday

My Foreverdearest Diary,

The whole day seemed so gloomy and the gray sky, gray world matched my gray shirt and my sad mood.

I got a test score of 3 in Algebra Mid-quarter Test out of 120 items. [that was a major blow]

At Literature period, Miss Opiana also looked gloomy because of the nationwide news in the Philippines. To me she sounded like all of us will die soon because she said before we went home for dismissal : " For your assignment, please bring short stories for.. (paused) ... I don't know if we'll meed again. But in case we will, please, next Tuesday." See? [ I was being melodramatic here about being an adolescent at the beginning of an impending civil war from the EDSA Revolution happening in Manila that time]

What makes me really cry is that PX is in Baguio while the trouble in Manila is becoming worse. I'm afraid there will be civil war and it might reach our province.

I love PX. I miss PX. What could be happening to him these days? I worry about him a lot! How will life be when the civil war will start? Will we still be alive?

There's a curfew for us all from 6PM to 6AM, no one could get out much. No kidding about the war. The only sign folks are waiting for is when our relatives from Manila would evacuate and go back home to the province then it's a sure sign the trouble has gotten worse. When that happens... I guess I'll run away, I'll escape [the thoughts of a girl with a sheltered life] I overheard my folks talking about the EDSA Revolution.. in just a few days the country will be bombed (March 5th is what they say) I will try my best to fight no matter what happens.

Haah! Just my luck to have a boyfriend this year and war in the Philippines!
PX, I LOVE YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Dear God,
Please Save The Philippines!!!

love,
Red

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022486
Evening
Monday

Hello. He's gone to BC and I'm free today until Thursday to play around hehehe (hoy!) Just joking. I really need time for my studies this week because of the exams and quizzes.

I realize isn't it a wonder the events happened so fast. I just met PX again last February 12 then we went out on a date February 22, and now we are "on"! Ten days difference, oh my goodness, am I that easy to get (and forget?) I hope he doesn't think of me that way! NO! :-D

Oh, quiet time again, no Algebra test paper yet but, tomorrow maybe... Dear God, please bless me.

Red

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022386
Evening
Sunday

Hello. It's a boring day but I can still feel the happiness from yesterday's moments. I feel bad becoz of a gray sky. I'm not sure if he'd be able to come and fetch me at school tomorrow bu GOSH I MISS HIM! I FEEL LIKE DYING IF HE'S OUT OF MY SIGHT! I'm afraid that he might meet someone else who's prettier than me while he's in Baguio City. I'll probably....haaah, stop it!

I love him! that's all and I just hope the jealousy blues will be gone. OK!

I remember I still have to write back Lara, just to say hello and how everything is here. No, I don't feel anything about who is in Tuguegarao. No time for that now.

RIGHT NOW I NEED MY GOODY BRAINS COZ I NEED THEM IN SCHOOL, PLEEZ!

Dear Lord,

Please give me a good day tomorrow though I won't see PX. Please help my test paper in Algebra have a score. Please, dear Lord, and please bless Lara, PX, my teacher in Algebra Ms. Basa, Mama, Miss Opiana, Lanie and all my close friends.


Red

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Saturday
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Evening

Dear Diary,

Hello! Hello! Hello! Everything's fine! Everything is alright! PX and me are officially on as sweethearts!

Just like that, when we were on our date today.. he hugged/ embraced  me.. I was so happy, this means we really are sweethearts! Ahahaaaay! Chill to the bones was what I felt but I didn't make that obvious. [Yes, dear readers, hugs and embraces already meant something for me then, life was that simple]

I know he loves me so much because he cares so much for me to speak the truth if I still love someone else from my past relationship. He said he feels I still love someone somewhere (though I haven't told him anything) but I assured and swore that he will be the only one.. he asked: "Red, until FOREVER?" I had no comment but to smile sweetly. [Yes, in my heart I really meant yes. Dear readers, allow me to clue you in some more.. I held on to my promise for quite a long time, and it was a very very long time. As you will find in these series of old diary entries we were on in 1986 and still on in 1988. Ha-ha, will I then say what Liz Taylor said about her love for Richard Burton? Haha, I really don't know, I'm just kidding here]

PX is still not sure with me, even joked about me finding another guy. Isn't that silly? Why is he insecure about that, isn't it obvious already?  ... But then I feel jealous really about his former girlfriend. He told me a few things about her, and I wonder how they broke up. Scary to think of, I don't want that to happen to me. I know he still cares for her, he's still wearing her ring. I heard about that story from Betty, when we first met PX in January 17th, that his ex-gf and him exchanged class rings and I feel uneasy. [now I find that story quite odd, because all that time he had a soldier's class ring -  the one with a ruby in it. It must be his own ring, handed down by his brother from PMA] 

Well, PX will be gone for about five days. He will be going to Baguio to see his father. [that was always the story] I'll be left alone in a sour world. I thought I could have the stars in a split second but then, the gray clouds covered it and it's beginning to rain. [what poetry, huh?]

I love him, I love him, he's the only one I love and no one else! Not even Ralph, he is just a special mention in my list

Dear God, please bless PX and me. Please make our relationship stronger to last forever.

I love PX!

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Friday
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Evening

Hello! Hello! Hello! He loves me! He loves me! He finally said that he loves me! But I can't utter the words "I love you" to him when he asked me to... but well I just acted wacky by giggling about it then just changing the subject by joking. But deep inside I really love him! Yes, really!!!

Why can't I say the same? Is something holding me back? Is it Ralph? [Yes, Ralph is only more of a fictional character] No, not this time!

But well, as of now, I love PX! Haay! I'm really going crazy!! The problem is what if he finds me boring, then he will surely split from me. and if I see him with another girl, Ate Baybee will now dare me what to do. hehehe  (hey! PX and I still didn't have one complete date, jealousy creeps!) But again, on summer vacation, no PX, no Ralph because I can't go there.. because I might be going to summer remedial class for my algebra.. and because PX will not be here too because he will spend summer in Laguna. WHAT? Yes.. I hope he changes his mind. Isn't it supposed to be.. 'till death do us part? :)

Ok, then, I'm getting high blooded again, kitam!

I love you PX!

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Thursday 022086
Evening

Hello! A miracle - why the cheery greeting? I got a tear-jerky letter from Lara. It says:

Dear Ate Red,
Hi, Hello I hope you're fine, like me. Ate Red, I'm not mad at you I even had a letter for you before but he gave it to your mom when they were in Manila. I hope you understand me because almost everyday I have plenty of assignments in school.

Did you know one time we happened to pass by Palpakman you know why I called him palpak, because he doesn't look handsome anymore, he's "babalu" already (Gosh! Don't hurt my feelings, I know it's not true, i love him, i love him, he's my RR, please!!!!) Dong said, " Hey Robby, Ate Red has a crush on you!" Good thing Ralph didn't hear him, it would have been embarrassing.

How is everybody there? I hope everything is ok. 

BYE-BYE.

Always loving you,
Lara

My dear younger cousin, Lara, really cares for my feelings! wah! I hope she didn't write all that about Ralph coz I've been telling her a hundred zillion times to choose good, better, best words about Ralph. Golly, if that's how she feels.. then it's okay, I can't influence her.  And is it true, that Ralph has forgotten all about me? He hasn't heard what Dong said, what's the meaning of this... when I went back home here in the province he now has amnesia not even speaking to my cousins.

Well, this summer, I make sure to take a long vacation there.. if PX and I will split. (it's an i love you, i hate you, no decision here) I miss Ralph, how's he? If only I was there...am I crazee - more crazee than the talk of the town [it's an 80s lyric]

Well, tomorrow is PX day. Will see him again. I like and <3 PX as long as he understands and loves me very much!

Red

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