Hello! Hello! Hello! Everything's fine! Everything is alright! PX and me are officially on as sweethearts!
Just like that, when we were on our date today.. he hugged/ embraced me.. I was so happy, this means we really are sweethearts! Ahahaaaay! Chill to the bones was what I felt but I didn't make that obvious. [Yes, dear readers, hugs and embraces already meant something for me then, life was that simple]
I know he loves me so much because he cares so much for me to speak the truth if I still love someone else from my past relationship. He said he feels I still love someone somewhere (though I haven't told him anything) but I assured and swore that he will be the only one.. he asked: "Red, until FOREVER?" I had no comment but to smile sweetly. [Yes, in my heart I really meant yes. Dear readers, allow me to clue you in some more.. I held on to my promise for quite a long time, and it was a very very long time. As you will find in these series of old diary entries we were on in 1986 and still on in 1988. Ha-ha, will I then say what Liz Taylor said about her love for Richard Burton? Haha, I really don't know, I'm just kidding here]
PX is still not sure with me, even joked about me finding another guy. Isn't that silly? Why is he insecure about that, isn't it obvious already? ... But then I feel jealous really about his former girlfriend. He told me a few things about her, and I wonder how they broke up. Scary to think of, I don't want that to happen to me. I know he still cares for her, he's still wearing her ring. I heard about that story from Betty, when we first met PX in January 17th, that his ex-gf and him exchanged class rings and I feel uneasy. [now I find that story quite odd, because all that time he had a soldier's class ring - the one with a ruby in it. It must be his own ring, handed down by his brother from PMA]
Well, PX will be gone for about five days. He will be going to Baguio to see his father. [that was always the story] I'll be left alone in a sour world. I thought I could have the stars in a split second but then, the gray clouds covered it and it's beginning to rain. [what poetry, huh?]
I love him, I love him, he's the only one I love and no one else! Not even Ralph, he is just a special mention in my list
Dear God, please bless PX and me. Please make our relationship stronger to last forever.
I love PX!
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February 22,1986 - A Day In Life
Presenting "A Day In Life" my series of texts from my journals that I kept between the ages of 14 and 17. I'll be adding new entries every now and then to share all my thoughts, ideas,events, experiences, memories, ideas I had during the eighties. It is for my continued amusement that I read and reread my old journals, even when there isn't much content, I still gain occasional insight how I'm still in the process of changing to maturity. Most of the names have been changed to protect the people I recently found on Facebook. A few are just partial entries, my bleeping and blinding exclamations have been removed and some entries have been modified to give way to my now correct spelling and grammar. Yet the mix of excitement, melodrama and pleasant memories from the eighties are still much felt :)I hope, as you read my old journal with me, you enjoy the same sentiments.