Heart Of The 80s

FRIDAY
Evening
March 18, 1988

Hi! Sorry for not reporting the news yesterday because I was so-so-so heartbroken and at the same time overwhelmed of something  that should've made me glad yesterday.

I went to school yesterday at past 7, yes it was late but then classes are getting irregular these days. Not much students going there now, except those like us who plan to go somewhere after school, simply meeting up with our friends there. As soon as I arrived, I sat down at the Triangle shed together with Amy, Virginia, Imelda, Vangie and others while we were waiting for something (?) I've been there for half an hour already when one by one the students were leaving. Then Brendon entered the school gates but my heart did now  beat wildly this time (GOOD!)

After a while, Amy and I were talking, then she asked,"Do you know someone named Brian?"
Me: (suddenly surprised, and stood up) "Ha? Why, what about him?" Now there, I was really interested and got hurt..
Amy: "Isn't Brian, Ms Jane's BF?"
Me: "That's not true, I heard they are cousins-"
Amy:(didn't let me finish) "No, because Vangie told me so!"
Me: (kind of piqued already) "Hmm, so who told that to Vangie?"
Amy: "Michael"
Me: "How come?!" (still really not believing)
Amy: "Michael is Vangie's bestfriend. Vangie told me Ms Jane's BF is Brian, didn't you tell me something about Brian?"
Me: "No, I didn't." [I don't remember confiding those kinds of things to anyone, not even Amy by bestfriend/seatmate, until I was sure] Then I remembered, it was Daryl...ayyy!

And after that Amy and I just talked about other things, but despite that, I felt bad really close to crying, but I cannot let it show. TSE!!! STOP! STOP! STOP! I tell myself whenever I remember everything Brendon has said.

And this other news, I should've written yesterday too but then it would remind me of the Brendon, Brian,Dean brothers because this guy's name is Brian also.

DIRECTLY TO THE POINT: I saw Brian Amor again! (from 1985, cute eyes, college boy from Lyceum) Desiree, Sandra and I were riding a commuter jeepney on our way to Elisa's Cinema when I saw this guy riding in another jeepney as we stopped in traffic. He smiled. then he's gone.. but wait.. that's not all, something else shocking happened...[trust me, I was overreacting!] .. He was with his friend and they got off the jeepney and transferred to the one we were riding in! How overwhelming!

Brian:"Hello.."
Me: "Hi!" (keep smiling, keep shining!)
Brian: "Where are you going?"
Me: (Sorry, God, I lied) "Just there, my friend's house"
Brian:" Uh.. what is your name again?"
Me:"Ha...eh..." (Bad, he forgot my name, aha...!) "Richred"
Desiree: "Let's go down now.." That's at the Luzon Colleges still. But Desiree was anxious for me already. [my friends were all the conservative kind, they don't want boys chasing us]
Me:(to Desiree) "Ok, sige" (to Brian) "Eh, we're stopping here now"
Brian: "Okay, we'll stop here too." Yaiiks

As were were walking, going toward Elisa's Cinema, I whispered to Desiree and Sandra, "Buenas, Desiree! Why is this happening?" Desiree smiled, a knowing smile. They went walking ahead of me, and as I walked as slow as I can but I'm thinking why and what for?

Then Brian called me again, "Where are you in Mangaldan?"
Me: (I didn't lie this time) "Just the private school near the Catholic church, just ask my schoolmates" [haha, was I so popular then? haha I don't think so. Just that my name is foreign-sounding]
Brian: (still not getting it clear) "What room  number?"
Me: (Ohmygosh, making sure to find me!) "Just tell my name and ask for me"
Brian: "What's your last name?"
Me: "Buelchmann"
Brian: "I beg your pardon?"
Me: (Haay, my blood is beginning to boil, smile) "Buelchmann .. ah, basta.. I knew you know it already before"
Brian: "Okay, see you, nice meeting you..."
Me: (so glad he's going now) I quickly walked to keep pace with Desiree and Sandra as we were near the cinema already. We hurriedly walked to the Elisa's Cinema entrance. And as we were paying for our movie tickets, out of the corner of my eye I saw Brian and his friend 30 meters away approaching, so after paying for our tickets we ran inside the movie theater to avoid then and the three of us were giggling  like crazy...!

Hmm, I think I don't like Brian now, because he's not-so handsome anymore unlike before he was so like Robby Rosa when he's dressed up [read: so 80's] Now he's just plain Brian Amor! And he acts to presko that day as if he can find me and is still welcome in my life. Tsooo late, my darling, because I'll be leaving for Manila soon and no one can stop me! Nevah!!! [ I was trying to sound like Maricel Soriano in 'Taray and Teroy']

Richred <3

P.S. I still like Brian (Brendon's brod)  very much!

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Friday
Evening
March 11, 1988

This is a less nervous day than yesterday. Brendon just looked into my eyes that morning during our first subject. And I really fixed myself today to impress some morons. [I remember this, I had a red ribbon headband with polka dots on my hair like Small Wonder] On our English class, Ms Jane gave us a unit test and he was transferred to the chair infront of Amy and he asked for a piece of paper as if he was so sure I'll provide. Of course I should, he's my great terrific CRUSH! During that test, I almost wanted to share my answers to him. I tried to get his attention, me pretending to ask for answers to the test items. He looked at me but just then our teacher shot me a glance. Arrgh! But Brendon made my day great with just simple talk. I sort of almost gave up because he didn't talk to me about Brian this morning.

On that afternoon, I was busy writing down facts from our Population Education subject   and all that time he passes by the aisle, I was hoping.. he'd say something. When I finally gave up, he passed by and turned toward me to say:" He asked me today how you are doing. Kumusta daw! Uyy, he said he will give you his latest photo. Hey!" I was just happy he talked to me today, I answered: "Hey you, Brendon, stop it please! You are making fun of me again!" I smiled to myself as he walked away. And here's what I forgot to add yesterday about my dream... has something to do with our conversations lately. Since he was speaking to me already, I keep looking at his lips and I can't believe that in my dream his lips are exactly that in real life! Perfect! Maybe he has noticed me having a fantasy about kissing him on the lips! I love him no matter if he is just teasing me about Brian or fooling me about all this. HA!

love,love,love you, Brendon!

Richred

P.S. My T.A.N.G.A boyfriend ---> PX saw me after the STHS parade at the store of Amy but he didn't go near to talk to me. When I left Amy's store, that's when he asked Amy about me. (HAAY! NAKU!!) And according to Lanie also, PX went to University of Pangasinan (U-Pang) Foundation Day/ Anniversary, but to our own anniversary last February 22, he has forgotten...!

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Thursday
Evening
March 10 1988

Hi! hello! This is another day that seems like a WHAMMO Day! [meaning great in the biorhythm scale] It all has to do with Brendon.

Since Tuesday, I've been watching every move of Brendon because he sometimes looks at me right between the eyes and I think of him once in a while and pretended that it doesn't matter if he has a girlfriend already. [ha! was I desperate then!] And I dreamed  of him on that Tuesday night that I was looking directly at his lips and kissed him. (And it has something to do with today.... sort of) [hahaha, the thoughts of an infatuated teen during the 80s!]

Well, these days are now kind of Iskul Bukol because all we needed was to get our clearances signed for submission of projects, then we will be waiting for exams and then Happy Graduation (bow!) That's the reason why all of us are being rowdy in our classroom lately. During Population Education class, boys were playing jokes/tricks on just any innocent victim like pinning labels on their backs that say "I am not yet circumcised", "I am a playgirl" those kinds. [there were nastier ones that I just don't want to mention here] And I told Amy, my bestfriend/seatmate to watch out that maybe someone would play a nasty joke on me.

True enough, there was one naughty person who tagged me as "I have 7 boyfriends.." and Amy found it out the very minute it was put on my back. We didn't find out who it was, Amy just handed it to me and I read it, was mad but sort of laughing still, as I looked toward the seats of Brendon and company. I caught him looking at me too, and sort of laughing too.

I asked him, "Who put that on my back?"

Brendon: "I didnt see anyone"  then he moved to seat on the chair behind ours..
and said, "Richred... I have something to--"

Me: "Yes, what is it?" (I had the feeling what he was going to say, my heart beat so fast!)

Brendon: "You've met my brother at the JS Prom, the one who was with me that night. Do you know him? He says "Hello" and wants to know how you are"

Me: " Your brother? Really?" (Yes! I knew it! And I couldn't believe Brendon is talking to me now. I stalled for more time)

Brendon: "He's asking me about you. He saw you at the plaza the other night, he says"

Me: "Aha! Really, that is your brother? Ha?" (Aww, if you only knew the truth dear Brendon!) Then I didn't look at him, I felt myself blushing to much to speak. WHAT!!! A conversation with my crush!!!!!! Wow!!!

Brendon: (But he was makulit) "What will I tell him? Is it a YES? He says he wants to see you on our graduation ball."

Me: (Brendon's brod believes in himself too much, aargh my fault!)

Brendon: (Makulit again) "Is it a YES?"

Me: (Hmp, just to stop him "OKAY then!"

Brendon: (he jumped so high and clapped) " Yahoo! Yehey!... hey, he's a handsome guy!" then went out of the room looking so happy. (Dear Diary, why is he super happy?)

That afternoon, during Advanced Algebra subject, he asked a piece of paper from me and I just didn't look up at him but gave him what he needed, because he might make a big thing out of it. After that subject, he kept on passing by our aisle purposely just to say "Kumusta ka raw, uyy, Kumusta raw!" ( wants to know how I am doing) and I would feel annoyed because I almost wanted to cry because it's Brendon I really liked!. Then one time he said something sounding both horrible and sweet to my ears: "You're not Miss Buelchmann [haha my real name]  anymore, you're now Mrs. _______! (their family name)" Oh gosh, our classmates heard him and cheered thinking it was "us". Until dismissal time, he still didn't stop, even when our adviser was talking to me. Brendon cheerfully said, " Richred, I will tell him that you've got a crush on him too! Really!" And I couldn't stop him but smiled, because I was with our adviser. He really is CRAZY!!!

Brian (his name) you are so cute! ...I'm just so happy. But you don't really know me. I should remind myself of who I am.. not to expect to much. [getting insecure there]

love, love, love
Richred
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Thursday
Evening 030188

Hi! Hello! Fine,fine,fine because now I've got all the requirements Ate Mimie is asking for me to submit in Manila. Just need to photocopy and mail them tomorrow. Hay,naku! I wish and hope for the best on these things.

Oh, there's something about yesterday at our Social Studies exam, confession: I used a cheat code of Richred and after I copied all the details I needed, Amy said to hand it to her for copying too. After answering the test, I was busy 'teaching' Rusty that's why I didn't know Amy was convincing Marife (seatmate of Shyboy just behind them) to copy from the code. Now their problem was how could the code reach Marife when there's a wide gap between our seats? Quickly, I grabbed the cheat code (codigo) from Amy and threw it to Marife and whispered, "Psst, there's the code!" because it landed just at her desk.But Marife refused to pick it up, yet Shyboy heard us and took it to copy. Hay, I don't know if I would be embarrassed for him knowing my dirty little secret or get peeved because it was the only closest encounter between Shyboy and me... hahaha!

And this morning at the Social Studies class, Rits - our loud mouthed classmate, who says he's my cousin because we're from the same place- again called me "How are you doing, Insan?" Tagalog slang for "cousin". This means he's going to make fun of me again so I tensed. Meanwhile, the ever elusive Brendon was now seated near Rusty and just close enough to hear whatever happens. The most annoying thing that happened, Rits went far too close to me, almost kissed my cheek when he asked me how I was!! The guys at the back, and near us cheered. I was angry because of the semi-embarrassment "Leave me alone!" I said. Rits answered back, calling Brendon : "Brendon, Brendon.. you better seat beside Red"   all the more making me annoyed. Thankfully no one reacted from our class. I didn't even look at Brendon to see how he took Rits' joke (why would I!) But now I don't care anymore... boys are really heartbreakers... all I care about and miss is PX.

Missing so much,
Red

 [MY NEXT OLD DIARY ENTRY CAN BE FOUND HERE;]