Heart Of The 80s

Wednesday
February 12, 1986
Evening

Hello!Hello!Hello! I saw PX today!!! Yeheyy! It felt like the world just stopped, and it felt like I could hear Robby Rosa singing "Like An Explosion" over the crowd!

(exact spot of the bus stop where I found him again)Thanks to flickr for the photo


Same story like yesterday, I was with ES again waiting for Ate Baybee. We both crossed the road toward Philippine Lumber to wait for the incoming buses going back to YBTTC*. We were waiting for the next bus then, and still talking. ES began by asking me if Ate Baybee said anything about him, I felt unsure where it was leading to,so I just said "None." (then I just looked the other way) Who did I see a little bit further?! There was PX!!! We both smiled and walked toward each other, and ES was gone in a flash!! would you believe that?! [Yes, when you're in love with love, everything just stops. All you can see is the object of your affection. :) ES was gone? Hmm, I don't think so, I think I was just rude not to tell him to wait a sec]

So PX and I just talked, about what's the latest. PX said.. 'that I'm his crush' and he will see me tomorrow at school!!!!

So I beg you, pleez gimme a vacation to keep you coz we are in danger of my mom and you might fly all my secrets away. See you!! [Yes, after all that time, my mom saw me hiding my diary in a secret place I marked hidden wealth, hahaha, it's a Marcos election terminology]

Red


*What's YBTTC? It's my own term for our sleepy town stands for "You Belong To The City" (shrugs) I don't know why :)

*Who's this PX from the 80s? Visit here
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021186
Evening
Tuesday

Hello. Ralph's day today but I dedicate this day to PX though still he hasn't shown up.I'm not angry anymore. Instead, I feel so sorry for myself that I won't be spending Valentine's Day.My observation about year '85 and '86, they are both opposites. Last year's happy days are now boring, sleepy, tearjerky days. Siguro something happened to PX, maybe he got sick.  [ooh,ha-ha, what a concern! yeah, that's the men's common excuse] Anyway, I still like him because of love and he's still not here by my side. [haha]

This afternoon, I happened to see Ate Baybee (my other bff ,Lanie's elder sister, 19 years old then) at the waiting place for buses and jeeps at Carried [that's Philippine Lumber, what they really meant] I wasn't able to mention yesterday that Ate Baybee introduced a guy from their college to me. He's ok, kind of handsome, the quiet type like BB.. but you know me, when I'm seriously looking for someone else I ignore the person  who's just near me. Let's call this guy ES (Elevator shoes, coz he's tall) Well, I saw ES again today at Carried  and he was the only one I could ask where Ate Baybee went. So he answered:  "Rode a J & J bus going to Manaoag" Much later, here comes Ate Baybee alighting from the bus.  [Ate Baybee went joyriding the Dagupan-Binalonan route, as was her habit in those days.Please don't ask why.] Soon as she was near me, she whispered,smiling: "ES has a crush on you!" I just  looked at her as if I didn't hear anything. But really, how would I believe if ES has a crush on me when he doesn't say anything, kind of shy!

Cut this story short: We took the next bus home. We were just quiet for a while as we were seated in the 3-seater ones. I was seated in the middle of the two. Because of the awkward silence, I whispered asking something about PX, but Ate Baybee dismissed me with: "Will you please talk to ES?" Oh! Am I crazee here?!
A few minutes later, ES spoke up to me, kinda whispering: "Is that guy Baybee's boyfriend?" (referring to the bus conductor ahead)
Me answered: "I'm not sure"
Ate Baybee : "What? That guy, not my boyfriend!"
ES: "But you have a boyfriend, right?"
Ate Baybee: "Yes, of course!"
ES: "How does it feel to be in love?"
That's when I answered (mimicking Maricel Soriano): "It feels like heaven! But now I'm lying low, not in love! Hmp!"
Laughter, nervous laughter...[must have been a set-up that time]
Then Ate Baybee shocked me by her plans: "Both of you have no girlfriend/boyfriend. Hey, ES, it's settled then! On February 14 (pointing at both of us) it's a date, and I'm the chaperone. Okay?"
I BLUSHED.  I felt so icky because.. I ... don't... know. Perhaps I'm falling indeed though I try to control it.

Maybe that's what God wants. Maybe this is just a test for me if I'm faithful to PX. Well, I really am!

I love PX! (1,000,000,000x)

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Monday 021086
Evening

Good Evening, dear diary. I had a good day if only I didn't have fantasies some days ago.

I went to school feeling awkward of my hairdo. I seems I've got a lot of fans,ha. No kidding, I have another classmate,Daff, she also has a new hairdo but my seatmate Jerom was making fun of her, then said: "Your hair looks so much better, it looks good on you. You kind of resemble...." he trailed off because I wasn't really listening because I was paying attention to my other seatmate, another Jerome - he's the Filipino-American - who finally spoke up. I know this guy has a crush on me but won't admit it! Whenever Jerom would tell stories, Jerome would still look at me for approval before he gets to laugh. I don't know why. He has a crush on me? Hahaha! Anyways, the lessons for today were so easy, because I was so inspired! But that inspiration was gone. He sort of stood me up. Isn't it? I really waited but no PX came. I'm angry at him, so angry! I don't want to see him anymore!

Hey, I dreamt last night that I was watching a Menudo concert. I was late in going to the concert but when I entered the stadium, there were only a few people there so I took the frontrow,ha! That time, in my dream, Robby Rosa was singing solo. When he finished singing, he sat near another fan. But when he saw me, he smiled at me, I smiled back. He said "hello" and gestured me to come closer. I said to myself: "Who does he think he is?" So Robby Rosa came over to where I was. Then... no one woke me up, but I just did despite the wonderful dream. [hahaha, indeed! In reality, I get this dream now from what happened in February 12,1986. You'll find out later]

That's all I can write for now, I'm angry at PX. I hate PX! I hate PX! I hate PX!

I love Ralph! I love Ralph! I love Ralph!

WHAT A BORING DAY BUT EXPECT A RED VALENTINE!!!

 Red

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Note: Wondering who is this PX from the 80s?

Sunday 020986
Evening
Hello. I hope someone can help me. I'm drowning in tears. [I'm laughing at this now] Somethings making me feel awful. Maybe I'm excited to see PX but I still fell I love Ralph very much. I don't know why I can't leave a person I've never heard a word from except a cheery greeting. Why is this so? I know that God really let us meet but it was a wrong time to realize this. Even when I often seen him before, Ralph was always there but we never talked. It's okay. But I'm really losing interest in him now and my feelings are all going toward PX but I still like Ralph too. I don't want to push him away totally. I know we were not steady but I feel that we were before but really we weren't. [What did I really mean that time.. I don't know, I'm just copying the text now]. 

 Maybe there were two people in this world before who just looked like us and fell in love. Maybe Ralph and I are the ones here now. I don't want to hurt him. You might say he won't be hurt because he never got to know me well. But what do I really feel? I love him, I don't want to hurt him coz I know how it feels to be left. But Ralph and I were never on. Why?Why? Why? I know something's wrong, but what? I have no close friends right now who can explain to me what I'm really feeling.
I love Ralph. I love Ralph. I love Ralph. I love Ralph. I love Ralph. I love Ralph. I love Ralph. I love Ralph. I love Ralph. I love Ralph. I love Ralph. I love Ralph. I love Ralph. I love Ralph. I love Ralph. I love Ralph. I love Ralph. I love Ralph!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Red

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Friday 020786
Evening

Hello!Hello!Hello! I've got a decision! Here, I still don't know who won in the 1986 Snap Elections,huh! But here are the results in my analysis...I'll just let go of Ralph, maybe I'll just see when I meet him again in the summer. As for PX, he will be the one here for now.
Dapat dalawa yan! (wala na si Arnie dahil malabo, nakakatakot yun) [words taken from the Marcos tv ad again]

I think I am getting in love in the order of the songs I like best: ... 1st Because Of Love...
2nd If You're Not Here(By My Side)... 3rd Please Be Good To Me ... 4th Parque Del Oeste.

Dear Diary, will just explain later so you won't say I've cheated in the results,huh? Naku..ha!

Red

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Friday 010786

February 7,1988
Morning

Hello! It's election day today and I hope Cory Aquino will win as president in the 1986 elections.
I have my own polls. What my heart says. I don't know whom I really am interested in, is it Ralph? or PX? Naku ha, PX's last name is the same as Tita Cory's!

But I really feel something is wrong with this situation coz it seems 2 people will get hurt if, etc.
and 2 people will also be happy if,etc. But still we are three in all. But who? who? who?

If it's Ralph I choose, I love him so much, he looks like Robby Rosa, he's a great basketball player, he makes me nostalgic because he lives quite far in Tuguegarao, he is intelligent ( I heard), he likes me but he never said anything about going together at all. I'm not even sure if he has a girlfriend already. I'm not that beautiful and charming for him maybe. If he isn't in a relationship yet, does he love me? (no.) But I like him very much because I got used to being a crybaby always wanting to hear news about him. I always remember him for the song "Because Of Love" by Menudo. So, Ralph pa rin? [term taken from "Marcos Pa Rin"]

If I chose PX, he is just near and he likes me also. I've got mature minds as bridges / matchmakers. PX is good, honest, frank,etc. That makes him great for me but well, should I say: SOBRA NA, TAMA NA, PALITAN NA! (?) [this term taken from Former president Cory Aquino's 1986 election slogan]

So let's just wait and see and analyse. Won't choose the wrong way. If Marcos wins, I choose Ralph or if Aquino wins, I choose PX... hahaha, wrong. "I've got 50 advisers whom I haven't heard in my entire life, malabo, kaya for Mindanao, for my family back home in the farm - Marcos-Tolentino"
[term again gotten from a Marcos election advertisement. My apologies, I was a very hyperactive 14 year old with a very short attention span just to be funny :))]

ok, give me one day to analyse! GAME!

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[Ralph is a real person who resided in Tuguegarao, but he was never my friend, not even close. He was like an imaginary friend that I wished I knew up close. All the info I knew were those few details my younger cousins Lara and Dingdong tell me about. Truth, I do not exist in Ralph's world ;'( - but hey, he's on facebook! haha]

Thursday Morning
020686
February 6, 1986

Hello! I'm back home and I'm planning to go Downtown Dagupan this afternoon with my friend Betty. But let me tell you that I got  a letter from Saldie. He wrote me and just told me everything frankly; he really likes me (oh no!) but I'm still young. Oh, why does he think I'm still young?! Too young (?) well here I am about to get into my second boyfriend. (just don't mention the other guy, he was nothing, pleez!)

And about my next boyfriend to be, let's call him PX, (I mentioned his name earlier here in January 1986) am changing his name coz I may not know maybe someone's reading this Classica notebook. I even removed my crush list and pasted it some place. PX, as I heard from Betty, was inviting me thru my friends last week. My friends say it was his birthday then, but I didn't go because we went to Manila (for the long vacation as  declared by President Marcos last January 28 until February 9). But before I went with my folks to Manila I asked Betty to get PX' address coz we'll just send a birthday card. Just that, Betty gave my message. PX's answer: he will just see me at my school when classes resume. But I doubt if what Betty said was true, knowing her. okay..that's it!


[PX was the guy I've had the longest relationship with during my teenage years. I was always awed by him, everytime - that was how I saw him before, like the whole world stops when he was around... you know what that's like. If you read on, you'll see how it all turned out. :)]

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