Heart Of The 80s

Monday
121786
Evening

Everdearest Diary,
We are going to Manila tomorrow kasi I'm badly needed and I'm in danger co'z I don't know how to get my way by not going there this time. What am I going to do, I have not said anything to PX yet.

I saw PX unexpectedly this afternoon. He really said he is in love with me. I almost melted, I almost wanted to kiss him and tell him "Iluvyouverymuch" but then I'm really watching my brains so that I won't go wacky! I don't understand why I am so silent when I'm with PX. Perhaps something is wrong with me.

I like to explain something to PX before we totally go together.[what a term I use for steady] I think it's about my situation, my mother's situation. [my mother was strict, so very very strict] Surely he won't understand, he doesn't know the real me. He doesn't know this girl he admires.

I hope God makes me brave enough to say to PX my personal situation.

I Love PX!!! (1,000,000,000,000x)

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Sunday
February 16, 1986
Evening

Hello! Sorry yesterday I didn't have time to write.
You know what, early yesterday morning Ate Baybee was loud at their house when I passed by. "PX WILL NOT SHOW UP TODAY!" and again, "MARK MY WORD!" she tried to scare me. She was upset at me, I wanted to fight back!  [but I'm not the kind that does that] I don't want to see ES ever again I said, so that made her angry at me. What should I do!!?!

Anyway, all's well, PX showed up today at my school. Joey and Joan were there with me by the gate and I introduced them. I feel awkward today, some schoolmates were looking at me especially the guys.  I don't know what they think, but they look like about to tease me. So? Basta,I'm really in love!!!

WELL, NEWS HERE: MY UNCLE FROM GERMANY IS COMING TO THE PHILIPPINES ON TUESDAY. GOOD THING WE HAVE EXAMS ON THAT DAY SO I WON'T HAVE TO GO TO MANILA
WITH MY MOM.

Anyway, I love.... PX, soon!

meeh,
Nadia M.

 [That's what I called myself sometimes when I tell a joke. I'm referring to my favorite -the 80's teen star
     Nadia Montenegro. I often plead with my friends and new friends 'I look like Nadia Montenegro?' If they say YES, that would make my day.  But really, no, Nadia has a pretty face. She's the lady there in the middle,see?]

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February 13, 1986
Evening
Thursday

Hi!Hello!Hi!Hello! Oh my, I thought I won't see him anymore. Maybe he was thinking of me so much that he forgot the time I gave him to see me. But anyway I saw him still as soon as I got down from the Downtown jeepney ride.

And guezz what he said? "The guy you were with yesterday is just there." I WAS SURPRISED: "Does he know I'm here too?" [silly me, what kind of a counter question was that haha] Then, here comes ES (the scene is complete: we have an antagonist : witch!) ES said in an almost whisper, "Hey, I told that guy (PX) we are cousins, please don't tell the truth. Just say yes, ok?" I said, "Why did you have to lie,  what was that for?" ES goes, "Because.. because.." (truth, I know ES is upset because he is jealous. I just went along with him because of Ate Baybee. Now he lost his chance with me) That's it! Then there ES was rambling on about Ate Baybee this, Ate Baybee that, wherever she was at that moment, etc.. just so ES and I had something to talk about. I really felt bored-to-death on him. I just said excuse me and went back to where PX was, who by that time was talking to a friend he found there.

PXx said everything ES told him. They've been speaking for quite a while before I came. "ES asked me if I met you already today but I didn't answer and asked him instead: 'Why you ask?'And he answered me, that you have a date with him." When I heard,I LAUGHED! PX smiled because I laughed out loud over that one.  He looked relieved to see me happy. [this same moment is what I always hoped for, just the happy moments. As PX and I used to say over the years "I wish we will always be this way.. happy"] 

We also talked about ES' silly scheme. Whatever that was! Poor ES, we escaped from his
 sight! We just mixed through the crowd and took the next bus, never seen again by ES! It was getting dark already as it was almost 6PM. The only seat we got was at the back of  the bus, just by the aisle. The light blue flourescent light above kept blinking every so often, making it dark and bright the next. [I meant this as a good thing before, it felt kind of romantic in my mind] We didn't talk much, just small talk and  just exchanging smiles. I still felt so nervous at times! Then, PX asked me if he had a chance* with me, and I politely replied "Ha?" that was all I could say!  I'm shocked at my own attitude, eh what can I do, I was very nervous already!  [I meant that when he finally said what I wanted to hear, I was dumbfounded,
I was excited but speechless] I smiled, and just looked at him. (He's so handsome! If Lanie and Betty were here I would have gone boy crazy!) Then, I spoke up again, "Sure." THAT'S IT!

After that, a moment of silence, we looked at each other (just like in my daydreams) I feel so in love I want to tell the world! [in reality, I can't or I would've been in trouble] 

 Basta, next time I see ES, I'll say, "Sorry the other day I forgot all about you. It's been a really long time since I've seen MY BOYFRIEND (take note) again." Surely ES will go nuts! I know he's jealous! What a poor guy... I don't like you, bad!

I love PX! (1,000,000,000,000x)

Red

[and that's the trademark of being with PX over the years. I almost always ended my diary entries with " I love you a million, trillion, zillion times]

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* chance meant- in the 80s you still go through courtship stage or what we call
the waiting period. Elders say guys should wait years, my older cousins say wait a year or so, my friends say wait a few months before saying YES



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February 13, 1986
Morning

Hello! I can't get away from you, dear diary! Coz I'm too nervous to see him and I don't know how
to excuse myself from my friends after school.Yaiiiikks! I'm really nervous and I can't even study for
our quiz in Biology coz it bothers me a lot! I can't sleep, I can't concentrate on our  lesson in school, all - I can't! [ahh, the melodrama haha]

Why am I addicted to PX!? I don't know. I'm afraid I might scream or [go the extreme] and faint altogether if I see him. As if he's so popular [yes, I was in the clouds] I dreamed last night that he picked me up from school, and said, while holding my hand "Let's go" :))
And in my dream, my friends and some classmates from the smart group were there and they cheered!!! [I wished for approval I guess] I'M TOO-TOO NERVOUS!! He might say "i luv you', eh I might collapse! Dear God, help me control my emotions. I still don't understand the meaning of love but I'm really trying to. Aaaaahhh!!!!

Another bad girl, Ate Issa - who's Ate Baybee's friend... supposedly told Ate Baybee this morning:  "I've seen Red yesterday at the bus stop in Carried with 2 UGLY guys." .. Grrr! [Whatever I wrote in this entry diary further I'm omitting. I realize now the statement was Ate Baybee's way to put me off PX - by scaring me that Ate Issa would tell on me to my relatives.Ate Baybee knew my weakest spots then, or thought so that it was. Btw, Ate Issa was quite a popular girl in our place. She and her sisters were considered the pretty faces too. Sad to say, Ate Issa has passed away from a heart ailment in 2010]

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Wednesday
February 12, 1986
Evening

Hello!Hello!Hello! I saw PX today!!! Yeheyy! It felt like the world just stopped, and it felt like I could hear Robby Rosa singing "Like An Explosion" over the crowd!

(exact spot of the bus stop where I found him again)Thanks to flickr for the photo


Same story like yesterday, I was with ES again waiting for Ate Baybee. We both crossed the road toward Philippine Lumber to wait for the incoming buses going back to YBTTC*. We were waiting for the next bus then, and still talking. ES began by asking me if Ate Baybee said anything about him, I felt unsure where it was leading to,so I just said "None." (then I just looked the other way) Who did I see a little bit further?! There was PX!!! We both smiled and walked toward each other, and ES was gone in a flash!! would you believe that?! [Yes, when you're in love with love, everything just stops. All you can see is the object of your affection. :) ES was gone? Hmm, I don't think so, I think I was just rude not to tell him to wait a sec]

So PX and I just talked, about what's the latest. PX said.. 'that I'm his crush' and he will see me tomorrow at school!!!!

So I beg you, pleez gimme a vacation to keep you coz we are in danger of my mom and you might fly all my secrets away. See you!! [Yes, after all that time, my mom saw me hiding my diary in a secret place I marked hidden wealth, hahaha, it's a Marcos election terminology]

Red


*What's YBTTC? It's my own term for our sleepy town stands for "You Belong To The City" (shrugs) I don't know why :)

*Who's this PX from the 80s? Visit here
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021186
Evening
Tuesday

Hello. Ralph's day today but I dedicate this day to PX though still he hasn't shown up.I'm not angry anymore. Instead, I feel so sorry for myself that I won't be spending Valentine's Day.My observation about year '85 and '86, they are both opposites. Last year's happy days are now boring, sleepy, tearjerky days. Siguro something happened to PX, maybe he got sick.  [ooh,ha-ha, what a concern! yeah, that's the men's common excuse] Anyway, I still like him because of love and he's still not here by my side. [haha]

This afternoon, I happened to see Ate Baybee (my other bff ,Lanie's elder sister, 19 years old then) at the waiting place for buses and jeeps at Carried [that's Philippine Lumber, what they really meant] I wasn't able to mention yesterday that Ate Baybee introduced a guy from their college to me. He's ok, kind of handsome, the quiet type like BB.. but you know me, when I'm seriously looking for someone else I ignore the person  who's just near me. Let's call this guy ES (Elevator shoes, coz he's tall) Well, I saw ES again today at Carried  and he was the only one I could ask where Ate Baybee went. So he answered:  "Rode a J & J bus going to Manaoag" Much later, here comes Ate Baybee alighting from the bus.  [Ate Baybee went joyriding the Dagupan-Binalonan route, as was her habit in those days.Please don't ask why.] Soon as she was near me, she whispered,smiling: "ES has a crush on you!" I just  looked at her as if I didn't hear anything. But really, how would I believe if ES has a crush on me when he doesn't say anything, kind of shy!

Cut this story short: We took the next bus home. We were just quiet for a while as we were seated in the 3-seater ones. I was seated in the middle of the two. Because of the awkward silence, I whispered asking something about PX, but Ate Baybee dismissed me with: "Will you please talk to ES?" Oh! Am I crazee here?!
A few minutes later, ES spoke up to me, kinda whispering: "Is that guy Baybee's boyfriend?" (referring to the bus conductor ahead)
Me answered: "I'm not sure"
Ate Baybee : "What? That guy, not my boyfriend!"
ES: "But you have a boyfriend, right?"
Ate Baybee: "Yes, of course!"
ES: "How does it feel to be in love?"
That's when I answered (mimicking Maricel Soriano): "It feels like heaven! But now I'm lying low, not in love! Hmp!"
Laughter, nervous laughter...[must have been a set-up that time]
Then Ate Baybee shocked me by her plans: "Both of you have no girlfriend/boyfriend. Hey, ES, it's settled then! On February 14 (pointing at both of us) it's a date, and I'm the chaperone. Okay?"
I BLUSHED.  I felt so icky because.. I ... don't... know. Perhaps I'm falling indeed though I try to control it.

Maybe that's what God wants. Maybe this is just a test for me if I'm faithful to PX. Well, I really am!

I love PX! (1,000,000,000x)

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Monday 021086
Evening

Good Evening, dear diary. I had a good day if only I didn't have fantasies some days ago.

I went to school feeling awkward of my hairdo. I seems I've got a lot of fans,ha. No kidding, I have another classmate,Daff, she also has a new hairdo but my seatmate Jerom was making fun of her, then said: "Your hair looks so much better, it looks good on you. You kind of resemble...." he trailed off because I wasn't really listening because I was paying attention to my other seatmate, another Jerome - he's the Filipino-American - who finally spoke up. I know this guy has a crush on me but won't admit it! Whenever Jerom would tell stories, Jerome would still look at me for approval before he gets to laugh. I don't know why. He has a crush on me? Hahaha! Anyways, the lessons for today were so easy, because I was so inspired! But that inspiration was gone. He sort of stood me up. Isn't it? I really waited but no PX came. I'm angry at him, so angry! I don't want to see him anymore!

Hey, I dreamt last night that I was watching a Menudo concert. I was late in going to the concert but when I entered the stadium, there were only a few people there so I took the frontrow,ha! That time, in my dream, Robby Rosa was singing solo. When he finished singing, he sat near another fan. But when he saw me, he smiled at me, I smiled back. He said "hello" and gestured me to come closer. I said to myself: "Who does he think he is?" So Robby Rosa came over to where I was. Then... no one woke me up, but I just did despite the wonderful dream. [hahaha, indeed! In reality, I get this dream now from what happened in February 12,1986. You'll find out later]

That's all I can write for now, I'm angry at PX. I hate PX! I hate PX! I hate PX!

I love Ralph! I love Ralph! I love Ralph!

WHAT A BORING DAY BUT EXPECT A RED VALENTINE!!!

 Red

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Note: Wondering who is this PX from the 80s?