Heart Of The 80s

Saturday 021388 Alive In Manila!

Afternoon
Dear Diary,
Hi and Hello! yes, now we are here in Manila and things came unexpectedly! Is there a proverb like that? Expect the unexpected as long as it's the best! So much fun!

But wait, here's something that I can't tell if it's sad or what... yesterday... morning, I saw Brendon kidding around with Sheila while the guys in class were looking at the 'censored' Valentine card. Our classmates at group 4 and 5 laughed at them.I said to myself: "No chance, kiddo, surely they will be back together again" Wasn't it just months ago when Brendon used to often frown at her, but look now - he's back to joking with her and Sheila's going gaga over him. Ahh, I don't know if I should cry or what, ah.... basta, I felt so angry seeing them together! [add a crying face here for me ;'( that's what I meant that time] And maybe that afternoon, they were really back together. I ain't sure coz I skipped classes again because it's Friday afternoon, I went to the movies at Rodela Cinema to watch "Stupid Cupid" with Matt.

Now here is something I must confess to you, dear diary. It was very very bad of me, but hey.. Before I went home that noon, I went back inside our classroom when all the students left. I searched for the 'censored' Valentine card but I couldn't find it, at first. But something pushed me to open the attendance record at the teacher's desk and... (would you believe?).. the 'censored' Valentine card I was looking for was right there clipped inside the attendance record book!! I hurriedly took it and shoved it inside my folder.. and went out as if nothing happened. Tsk,tsk,tsk! Sorry, my dear talented classmate Benny, sorry for your artistic talent in creating the 'censored' card. hmm, what can I say!!! [I still feel bad about taking the Valentine card. But on hindsight, maybe I saved the whole class from making our Physics teacher, Mr. Soco, furious. I mean, what reaction from a prim and proper, no-nonsense teacher would they expect? So, up to this day, no one knows I took this 'censored' Valentine card]

Love is in the air! I'm featuring two of my favorite romantic hits "Shower Me With Your Love by Surface which was an '89 hit;

... and the Philippines' local hit in 1984 from the movie "Bagets": "So It's You" by Raymond Lauchengco (special thanks to Mr.Ruel Mendoza for featuring the film clips on Youtube)

Wednesday
Evening
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Dear Diary,
Sorry about being absent for more than a week. [what an excuse letter expert I was then] I was busy on that Thursday and Friday about my luv letter to Brendon and on that Saturday I was worrying if I'd still send it and I worried about it and I didn't have time to write/report all the important events here. And on that Sunday, I was suddenly asked to go to Manila to report at the Deutsche Botschaft. And I forgot to bring you, dear diary, with me.. sorry, ha?

Well, first.. here we go with the dreams I had when I was in Manila... on that Sunday night, I dreamt of Brendon and Sheila. They were friends already and they were very happy, as happy as the closest friends. But in my dream, Sheila only wanted a cigarette from Brendon!.. how bizarre... But this morning, I overheard Sheila talk about Brendon, about the words he wrote on the our classroom wall [highschoolers are known for this bad habit] on the next Monday night, I dreamed of Dean* and his real girlfriend (according to Dess). Dean's girlfriend went to our room and told me there are some people backbiting me and Dean is defending me (WOW,Ha!) ... And here's what happened in reality between Dean and me is that he greeted me hello as we passed by each other at the Practical Arts building, and when we passed by each other in front of the plaza. I just smiled sweetly but I looked down because I felt shy.

And well, what happened on that Monday... first, Ate Edith, my mama, Matt and I went to the Deutsche Botschaft and as usual, Matt was acting silly. Why? when we took the elevator he acted funny and said there was an earthquake! (haha) Oh yah, we got a problem at the embassy because I had no ID with me so I've got to go back this Saturday (so by Valentine's Day I won't be here in the province)... Then after we went to the embassy, we headed to Bank Of America next.

Matt was acting sillier this time because of the automatic swinging doors - you know, the ones you just step on and it opens by itself. [yes, during the 80s automatic swinging doors was a novelty] Here goes Matt, gaping at every person that passes through the door. Ay probinsyano! Hay!

.... Afterwards, we all went to the SM Food Center at SM Makati and then we went shopping! Later we went home to rest a little. By late afternoon, Ate Edith and I went to the movies at Greenbelt Cinema (my most favorite cinema house with the romantic lover's lane, the most American McDonald's and remember my 2nd year high school days 012786?) We watched the movie "Ibulong Mo Sa Diyos" starring Vilma Santos, Gary Valenciano, Eric Quizon and Miguel Rodriguez. This movie made me cry, especially when I heard the song "Sana Maulit Muli" can't help but think of PX and how I miss him. Maybe it's because PX is a huge fan of Gary V.

The next day, Ate Mimie accompanied me at the University Of Santo Tomas UST for my application for entrance exam. I chose BACHELOR OR ARTS IN HISTORY and BACHELOR OF SECONDARY EDUCATION MAJOR IN HISTORY. Ate Mimie took me around the UST campus since it's the university she went to and is most familiar with. She said the school is not what it looks like, the students there have an easy-go-lucky attitude, the guys are bolero, the ladies are vain but still studies must be taken seriously. Hmm, I like the school.. I love the old Spanish buildings, the facade looks the same as ours in my high school Santo Tomas here in the province. Isn't this how buildings in Puerto Rico look like? hahaha having thoughts of Robby Rosa again! Hay, I hope I pass the exam...

Okay, so this morning at school, Brendon kidded me he's borrowing ten bucks sana. I smiled/frowned, haha. He went at the back of our room and announced: "Who's got ten bucks, lend me please!" then after a while he called my name again but I tried so hard not to look back because I was busy with our assignment. Besides I didn't know if he received the love letter na. On this afternoon, though, I found out he got it already. Saw his name written on the blackboard by the principal's office for the mail. Oh.. but I haven't seen him this afternoon because he was absent.

So that's the latest report for today. I'm closing this entry with Richie Valens' "C'mon Let's Go!"
Good night....

Red

[Who's Dean? That's Brendons's younger brother who was the campus crush. I didn't really know him :)]


For the next entry 

[I am so inspired today to just go ahead and begin a series of these blog entries I will call "A Day In Life". This series present the text from my journals that I kept between the ages of 14 and 17. I'll be adding new entries every now and then to share all my thoughts, ideas, events, experiences, memories, ideas I had during the eighties. It is for my continued amusement that I read and reread my old journals, even when there isn't much content, I still gain occasional insight how I'm still in the process of changing to maturity. Most of the names have been changed to protect the people I recently found on Facebook. A few are just partial entries, my bleeping and blinding exclamations have been removed and some entries have been modified to give way to my now correct spelling and grammar. Yet the mix of excitement, melodrama and pleasant memories from the eighties are still much felt :) I hope, as you read my old journal with me, you enjoy the same sentiments.]

WEDNESDAY Evening 10:30PM
February 3,1988  020388

Dear Diary,

This is some kind of a day. I'll start it from the very beginning...
This morning, Brendon( changed his name from RF to Brendon now) was not so late in coming to school. After checking our test papers in Filipino, he went to the faculty  room and volunteered to distribute the envelopes and of course, my envelope was there. But, Dan, our other classmate, offered to help him (OH!) and unfortunately, my envelope was given to me by Dan. (Aargh!) 

But then later, a campaign brochure from Baguio Colleges Foundation (now University of the Cordilleras) and the college courses offered were distributed. I was talking to my guy seatmate Daryl, just asking about the course descriptions. 
Me: "What is BSE?"
Daryl: "It's a course for teachers, of course!"
Me: "For highschool teachers?"
Daryl :"Yeah"
Me: "But what is this CMT and CAT? Can ladies enroll in this course? Maybe there are plenty of handsome guys here, eh?"
Daryl : (laughing) "Ha-ha. You're kidding, right?"
Me: " I had to ask!" More giggles.
Me: "Ok, now I know what course I'll take up. This is really it... BSE HISTORY MAJOR!"  [I loved history subjects because of all the hilarious stories by our effervescent history teachers.]
Daryl : (shrugs) "Sure you can..."
Me: " I'll be a teacher and would be teaching in this school. By then there would be plenty of handsome co-teachers too!" [Was only jesting for amusement] So that conversation lasted until I read more details to ask about.... Just then, Brendon came up beside   Daryl and held the same brochure that I was holding that time. Brendon and I both looked/gazed/stared (whatever) at each other for a few seconds, and I shivered. But oops,   Daryl said to Brendon: "Pare, this is Red's" So Brendon goes apologetically: "Okay.." Then went away. Aaargh! To  Daryl!

This afternoon, Brendon went in very late around 1:45PM. A visitor from the EARN computer school was  promoting their courses and encouraging us to study in their school. Around that time, Brendon came in but no one got distracted anyway. Later, our class took a scholarship exam for 30 minutes. A long time of silence. Then the proctor asked: "Is it difficult?" We all gave out a giggle. Brendon, who was seated at the far corner,said: "Chicken feed!".. haha, I said to Daryl: (who was seated just behind us - and copying my answers): "Hmm, we'll see!" Anyways, no time for that now.

Oh and much later, the wall between our room and the Aguinaldo section's room fell over the head of Sheila - Brendon's ex. I glanced quickly at Brendon seeing his expression if he will care for her. Nothing there. I think he sort of felt sorry for her but just smiled to himself. We all went back to our work. After the exam, Brendon went out to play basketball at the STHS court.

Other topic, I have something very very important to tell you, dear diary, and I fear it will happen. Matt, my 11-year-old nephew, is not so happy and said the world will end soon this March 18,1988 right after the eclipse. I'm praying that it won't happen. I hope God will not get angry at us here on earth, I'll try to be good already. Okay good night, dear diary.

[Now I think this was an awesome day :) All the people I mention here are every now and then in touch with me thanks to Facebook. Who's Brendon, you say? He's a former classmate for whom I've had a great silly crush- just like that. No, he never knew and only one or two close friends knew. Anyways, these were my best days so to speak]



Here was my next Entry

Find me on the 1st photo above, yes, that young girl in multi-color polka-dotted white shirt dancing at a wedding party. The rest of the people in the photo are folks in the baranggay and my cousins from the USA.

Let's get wordless here!

A happy Monday to everyone! I'm back joining Music Monday this week with one of my favorite songs by El Debarge, "Starlight Express". It's a song that became popular around the time our JS Prom was held in 1988. I still love it lots.Happy MM, all!

Monday 030386
Morning

Last night, I really can't sleep. I just listened to the latest sounds on the radio but I still can't sleep. Only when I turned on "Menudo Reachin' Out" tape did I calm down. I imagined I was in a place far away .. maybe Tuguegarao..

The day Lara and I listened to this Menudo album.. the afternoon when I first met Ralph... the day we searched for Ralph at BFD and PLDT (the places his team used to practice basketball)

Sunday
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Evening

Hello... it's just like any boring tearjerking day once again coz PX won't be here by my side until Wednesday. [boo-hoo, haha]

Lanie and I went to YBTTC/ Plaza and we also looked for the canteen/beerhouse. Oh yes, I forgot writing an entry last night.. that Lanie and I have a mission to find out who this Evangeline of Cynthia's canteen in YBTTC is. [Cynthia or Evangeline, sounds the same to me then.. ah the jealousy of imaginary rivals] Evangeline is PX' ex-gf's name but he never mentioned it to me, only to Lanie and Betty. Their talk was about how PX has a PMA college ring and he said it was his father's, and that it's a good thing he got it back from his ex-girlfriend when they broke up.

Ate Baybee says bad guys go to the kind of canteen/beerhouse we are looking for and that we shouldn't go. There are pretty ladies there who serve as waitresses, plenty of men go there mostly DOM or looking for relationship (In my 80's mind then!). Eeks, How disgusting.[I realize now the canteen we were all referring to then was the most popular restaurant in town, no drunks there or DOMs, but hey nowadays there are plenty of the dreaded bars here]

But then there we were at YBTTC this afternoon. It was a beerhouse but it wasn't Cynthia's Canteen, but that's where PX pointed at says Lanie. We were lost there, YBTTC is a small town to look around for someone. Will we still get to pretend we are mature people and order beer? Ha-ha!

Oh yeah, Bacon and I were at the store in Bucarillo Road [Binoboran Road, is the right term now]. We were ordering softdrinks that time but they ran out of stock so to speak, so we got beer instead! Really! I was very dizzy because of it, and real drunk too! Even wanted to buy cigarettes again for the four of us. Ha-ha! I'M GOING CRAZY WITHOUT PX AROUND!

And, this evening Uncle Joe (father of Lara) arrived. Wows, I got another letter from her but it's short and nothing much. Mentioned Ralph a little as getting cuter. Well, it's old news.. old style.  Anyways, by Holy Week Uncle will go back here in town and take my mom to Tuguegarao, then after two weeks I'll be next. ... am not so excited anymore, I really don't care. But PX is the problem.. on summer vacation he will be in Laguna for a summer job.. poor me.  hmp, he's going to leave me this summer and I think I'll be going to summer school this April ( I hope not)  I wish PX will still be here!

Dear God,
Please bless PX, Ralph, Lara, Dong,PJ,etc Please help me in my biology report tomorrow.

love,
Red

Hello, there it goes.. the news gets out little by little. First of all, Joey has met the super-PX I've been telling her about for long time. Next, an elderly lady- neighbor gossip saw us both while we were taking the commute back to the town proper. PX and I got off from the PUJ as soon as we were at YOU BELONG TO THE CITY [that's the name I labelled our town in my diary]. We just went strolling by the plaza, then we went to the booth of Betty and Ate Tita and Ate Merly. They said he's okay and down-to-earth kind of guy. Funny Ate Tita/Merly and PX have the same last name, just a coincidence :)

Much later when it was close to 5pm, we went to the local Catholic church. Almost closing time (do they ever close, I wonder) ... we knelt down by the pews and we prayed silently. I prayed of course, that the Lord would bless us both. I also had thoughts about Ralph and I prayed about that too (coz whenever I go to church I always pray for him). Then, we just sat there thinking our own thoughts, while the people working for the church were readying something for an event possibly for the next day. Then it got quiet when the church workers left, then he teased, "Think we are going to get married here someday? Answer me..."  I was usually quiet again, but I smiled. My heart beat so fast I could hear it. Aww, shucks!

I really admire him for being prayerful, I could tell he's a real church-goer.. but of course, coz he's from the town where thousands of pilgrims visit to offer their prayers. In contrast, I'm not a regular church attendee.. thanks to Ate Baybee's influence, I have not paid attention to sermons. [ funny I wrote this, it brings light to many things I often think about. For the record, I'm no longer a Catholic but a born-again Christian]

Well, this is all for now.. will write again tomorrow!

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Friday
February 28,1986
Evening

Hello! Here's what happened after school, I rode the Downtown jeepney ride again today but when it seemed to stop in front of Luzon Colleges, there's yucky Mr. Eeeks again! Haay, shucks, he even flagged down the jeepney I was in eh, you know me - I don't want to hear a word from him, makes me feel blah! I escaped.. I ran, ran, ran! I took another commute to get to the bus stop... whew, that was close!

Well, later, I saw my super hero, super handsome boyfriend... relieved! He seems to look so handsome to me today! He waved at me as I couldn't find him at first. Later, as we were waiting for the bus ride, he was telling me that he had a problem at home (like me). He was thinking of running away somewhere and I said, "Doesn't that scare you? You will have no one to look after you!" He simply smiled and said I was right. I told him about my earlier experience of almost running away before but I didn't.. of how sad I was, how afraid.. then silly me, I couldn't stop myself from saying Betty's secret that " hey, Betty's going to runaway with her boyfriend soon" and I joked :"I'm thinking of going with them." PX looked horrified, haha! Guezz what he said, "Don't mind those runaway stories, those aren't true that life will be better away from home. Let Betty go on her own, don't go.. you are still young and in school... better if we're at the right age already, ha." and he winked at me in jest, I can't help but laugh! I blurted, " I wouldn't run away and get married at a young age! Scary!" [that much was true] Then he was telling a true story of young lovers who planned to runaway by the meeting at the bridge at 9PM, but they got caught by parents. Oh, man, I laughed so hard with that story! :-D

Taking the bus home, we were quiet coz of some bad_ _?. Realized we didn't have a plan to meet tomorrow or where to go. But that's decided already. What makes me feel so super today is he said he missed me a lot.. that he's happy to be with me again! naks! [I translate: I'm touched]

Love and surprises,
Red

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Thursday
February 27, 1986
Hello!

I could say, that this is also a significant day for me though I feel a bit of doubt on you-know-who.

Well, today in school at our Practical Arts subject we had a short exam with all the mathematical drawings and patterns. Tough. In our Biology subject, we listened to the report of group one which I could hardly understand I even forgot what it was all about.. and oh my, next week, it's our turn to give the report so I've got to work on the researching... bye to my social life for a  while,right?

In History class- just an ordinary day with the indestructible Mr. Miranda... an ordinary day I hoped, until the attention was given to me. See, I was chewing chiclet gum that afternoon while our teacher was discussing. Mr. Miranda was going 'round the room facing the blackboard, not even looked at me when he said "You're chewing bubblegum." ..like to no one in particular. He didn't point at me and my classmates were asking one another "who" he was referring to but I know it was me so I looked down and pretended to be reading. guilty? "Miss B, are you?" Whoa!! I looked at him like he was crazy or something but at the same time I swallowed my gum to get rid of the 'evidence'. :) [ I knew what would happen next and being the shy quiet type I don't want to be embarrassed infront of the whole class] I lied: "No,sir." and smiled a sweet smile.  And you know Mr. Miranda, he's a really funny guy despite being no-nonsense, saved me the embarrassment by joking along, "Then you must be chewing your tongue?" to which the class roared in laughter. I smiled but bent my head down, my face red. Thanks still, sir, you're nice to me. :)

Literature class and English class just sped by and it was dismissal time! Joey went ahead of me and I can feel she's upset at something. She does smile at me but I feel she's just pretending everything is ok just to ease the tension.

So I took the commute alone today, and as luck would have it, the jeepney stopped infront of Luzon Colleges for a long time. Ah, who else was there waiting for a jeep but Mr. Eeeks!!! [my 2nd accidental ex-boyfriend that time who was a college guy, Bacon's uncle] and as soon as he spotted me he approached the Downtown ride I was in. He just went near, and not ride along.. thank God!! He patted me gently and said, "How are you doing?.. hello..." I didn't respond and ignored him. People in the jeep were looking at us, maybe especially at me and thinking (hmm???) Aargh!! To just be truthful, I feel squeamish seeing him.. he's so... thankfully I just thought of PX and of how he is in contrast, and that made me feel better. After a long long long pause, the jeepney driver decided to move along.. thanks!! finally going further away!  and did I hear Mr. Eeeks say "Bye,Red"? ... :)

When I went down from the bus this afternoon at YOU BELONG TO THE CITY [that's the name I labelled our Mangaldan town in my diary] I went straight ahead to our town plaza to pass by Ate Marlyn's. Guezz what, Saldie, KCMar and Adel's magic show were already there! [These friendly guys/gals were the ones Lanie and I met last January 1986 during San Fabian's town fiesta. Saldie's been writing me ever since to keep in touch. Their family owns the Universal Productions from San Pablo Laguna that travels anywhere in Luzon whenever there is town fiesta. They present magic shows especially in busy towns like our place] As usual, we were making small talk as to where they've been before our town. I also let them know where Lanie and I reside, also Ate Marlyn's booth at the plaza so they know where to find us. I also asked about one of their friends Christine Vasquez, if they've met her again since the last time. She's their friend, I think Adel's crush coz she's his age. She's half-Pinay, half-Mexican.. a mestiza like me. They said I sort of resemble her, which made me more endearing to these fellows. Anyways, we'll be seeing them again now that they are here in town!

Goodnight,
Red


[I'm continuing the old diary entries today from 1986 this time, I feel it helps me retrospect a little of how I've changed and in what area of my life I may need the good qualities again. I beg for your indulgence, Your Honor/s.. so to speak]


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Evening                                                                                                      Wednesday

Hello! No matter what I want to do, I really can't sleep

Because I saw PX unexpectedly this afternoon. I say unexpected because I was thinking all the while that he was in Baguio City. But I really had an intuition that he's here in the town all along. Is it he wants to know if I am sincere or rather he wants to surprise me.

We got a little bit of gap, a serious problem and I wonder how to overcome it. It's PX that's why.. he wants the whole universe to know that we are steady but I always try to clear it all up with him.. that my mom is very strict and I wouldn't know what to do if my mom would find out. I don't know about WhenTheCatIsAway, if he will stand up for me.

If only I didn't have these problems, no need to ask. I'd gladly announce to the world that PX is my bf. I just don't want my mom to know, that's all. She would go berserk for sure.

The pains of being 14! But I really love him!

PX, I LOVE YOU.. so please take your time in knowing me well first. Things are going too fast, please understand! I LOVE YOU! (1,000,000,000,000x)


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Evening
Wednesday

I know God heard my prayer last night! Cory Aquino is the new president of the Philippines and Marcos flew to Honolulu with the Marcos family last night at 9:05 PM [yes, accurate entry from me hehe]

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Evening
Monday

Hello. He's gone to BC and I'm free today until Thursday to play around hehehe (hoy!) Just joking. I really need time for my studies this week because of the exams and quizzes.

I realize isn't it a wonder the events happened so fast. I just met PX again last February 12 then we went out on a date February 22, and now we are "on"! Ten days difference, oh my goodness, am I that easy to get (and forget?) I hope he doesn't think of me that way! NO! :-D

Oh, quiet time again, no Algebra test paper yet but, tomorrow maybe... Dear God, please bless me.

Red

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Evening
Sunday

Hello. It's a boring day but I can still feel the happiness from yesterday's moments. I feel bad becoz of a gray sky. I'm not sure if he'd be able to come and fetch me at school tomorrow bu GOSH I MISS HIM! I FEEL LIKE DYING IF HE'S OUT OF MY SIGHT! I'm afraid that he might meet someone else who's prettier than me while he's in Baguio City. I'll probably....haaah, stop it!

I love him! that's all and I just hope the jealousy blues will be gone. OK!

I remember I still have to write back Lara, just to say hello and how everything is here. No, I don't feel anything about who is in Tuguegarao. No time for that now.

RIGHT NOW I NEED MY GOODY BRAINS COZ I NEED THEM IN SCHOOL, PLEEZ!

Dear Lord,

Please give me a good day tomorrow though I won't see PX. Please help my test paper in Algebra have a score. Please, dear Lord, and please bless Lara, PX, my teacher in Algebra Ms. Basa, Mama, Miss Opiana, Lanie and all my close friends.


Red

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Saturday
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Evening

Dear Diary,

Hello! Hello! Hello! Everything's fine! Everything is alright! PX and me are officially on as sweethearts!

Just like that, when we were on our date today.. he hugged/ embraced  me.. I was so happy, this means we really are sweethearts! Ahahaaaay! Chill to the bones was what I felt but I didn't make that obvious. [Yes, dear readers, hugs and embraces already meant something for me then, life was that simple]

I know he loves me so much because he cares so much for me to speak the truth if I still love someone else from my past relationship. He said he feels I still love someone somewhere (though I haven't told him anything) but I assured and swore that he will be the only one.. he asked: "Red, until FOREVER?" I had no comment but to smile sweetly. [Yes, in my heart I really meant yes. Dear readers, allow me to clue you in some more.. I held on to my promise for quite a long time, and it was a very very long time. As you will find in these series of old diary entries we were on in 1986 and still on in 1988. Ha-ha, will I then say what Liz Taylor said about her love for Richard Burton? Haha, I really don't know, I'm just kidding here]

PX is still not sure with me, even joked about me finding another guy. Isn't that silly? Why is he insecure about that, isn't it obvious already?  ... But then I feel jealous really about his former girlfriend. He told me a few things about her, and I wonder how they broke up. Scary to think of, I don't want that to happen to me. I know he still cares for her, he's still wearing her ring. I heard about that story from Betty, when we first met PX in January 17th, that his ex-gf and him exchanged class rings and I feel uneasy. [now I find that story quite odd, because all that time he had a soldier's class ring -  the one with a ruby in it. It must be his own ring, handed down by his brother from PMA] 

Well, PX will be gone for about five days. He will be going to Baguio to see his father. [that was always the story] I'll be left alone in a sour world. I thought I could have the stars in a split second but then, the gray clouds covered it and it's beginning to rain. [what poetry, huh?]

I love him, I love him, he's the only one I love and no one else! Not even Ralph, he is just a special mention in my list

Dear God, please bless PX and me. Please make our relationship stronger to last forever.

I love PX!

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Friday
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Evening

Hello! Hello! Hello! He loves me! He loves me! He finally said that he loves me! But I can't utter the words "I love you" to him when he asked me to... but well I just acted wacky by giggling about it then just changing the subject by joking. But deep inside I really love him! Yes, really!!!

Why can't I say the same? Is something holding me back? Is it Ralph? [Yes, Ralph is only more of a fictional character] No, not this time!

But well, as of now, I love PX! Haay! I'm really going crazy!! The problem is what if he finds me boring, then he will surely split from me. and if I see him with another girl, Ate Baybee will now dare me what to do. hehehe  (hey! PX and I still didn't have one complete date, jealousy creeps!) But again, on summer vacation, no PX, no Ralph because I can't go there.. because I might be going to summer remedial class for my algebra.. and because PX will not be here too because he will spend summer in Laguna. WHAT? Yes.. I hope he changes his mind. Isn't it supposed to be.. 'till death do us part? :)

Ok, then, I'm getting high blooded again, kitam!

I love you PX!

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Evening

Hello! A miracle - why the cheery greeting? I got a tear-jerky letter from Lara. It says:

Dear Ate Red,
Hi, Hello I hope you're fine, like me. Ate Red, I'm not mad at you I even had a letter for you before but he gave it to your mom when they were in Manila. I hope you understand me because almost everyday I have plenty of assignments in school.

Did you know one time we happened to pass by Palpakman you know why I called him palpak, because he doesn't look handsome anymore, he's "babalu" already (Gosh! Don't hurt my feelings, I know it's not true, i love him, i love him, he's my RR, please!!!!) Dong said, " Hey Robby, Ate Red has a crush on you!" Good thing Ralph didn't hear him, it would have been embarrassing.

How is everybody there? I hope everything is ok. 

BYE-BYE.

Always loving you,
Lara

My dear younger cousin, Lara, really cares for my feelings! wah! I hope she didn't write all that about Ralph coz I've been telling her a hundred zillion times to choose good, better, best words about Ralph. Golly, if that's how she feels.. then it's okay, I can't influence her.  And is it true, that Ralph has forgotten all about me? He hasn't heard what Dong said, what's the meaning of this... when I went back home here in the province he now has amnesia not even speaking to my cousins.

Well, this summer, I make sure to take a long vacation there.. if PX and I will split. (it's an i love you, i hate you, no decision here) I miss Ralph, how's he? If only I was there...am I crazee - more crazee than the talk of the town [it's an 80s lyric]

Well, tomorrow is PX day. Will see him again. I like and <3 PX as long as he understands and loves me very much!

Red

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